it got to me finally. broke down. completely. its been sometime. too much pent up frustration. and the worst part was there was no one to talk to. ofcourse there were people. but there isnt anyone who i could call and not feel like i was bothering them. not one person. either they are busy, have problems of thier own, or i just cant make myself open up. i really dont know. felt lonely like i never have. just the fact that there was nobody. friends read this. then they ask what happened. i dont like that. the blog is not a means to tell friends what i live. its just a big mess. am doing sometihng terribly wrong. dont know what. dont know how i manage to do nothing right. its just a fucked up mess. life. big time.
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