been sleeping at the hospital for the last two nights. taking care of my granny. havent slept much... but thats fine. doing it out of complete choice. dont want anyone else to do it. what hits me hard is that everytime she tosses or turn and i get up to check her (i am a very very light sleeper), she worries about me! asks me to not get up, catch up on my sleep lest i wont make it to work the next day, will be tired, if i need an extra pillow, if i want a coffee. i just hope that someday, at her age perhaps, i am one tenth as giving, one tenth as magnanimous and one tenth as large hearted.